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Is this anxiety?
If I’m sitting at the table with my kid and we’re having dinner even though we may do it everyday, we won’t ever have that exact moment again. Whether good or bad in every situation I always think that I will never have this exact moment again in my entire life. |
Ive been there! Im not sure what the word or feeling is but its definitely a recognition of time passing and instead of feeling sad or wistful about it I try to store those memories in a box in my brain. I go through all my senses and try to memorialize that moment. For me, its normally happens when I feel content and my brain is more quiet that normal. Almost mindful and in those moments I experience a wider experience- emotionally and visually. |
| Such is life. |
| But you'll have new moments that are equally satisfying. |
I've thought that before but in very specific situations that I know will never be replicated. I'm not sure what it is if you feel like that during a mundane moment. |
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Thanks PPs! I feel this way usually daily and exactly, even in the mundane. Like standing in line at the bakery, I’ll never be this age, buying this cookie on this Monday at this exact time with these exact strangers.
Assuming this feeling never goes away? I’ve noticed it more the older I get? I couldn’t tell if it’s some form of anxiety or just to another PP’s point, just life. |
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I don't think it's anxiety. It's mortality. And knowing time can't be stopped.
I sometimes think about Slaughterhouse Five and the idea of just circling back through your life forever. I know it would be torture for some, but for me so far, it would be a great gift. |
| Life Is Beautiful and Fleeting |
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Ever tried reading Anne Rice's Interviews with the Vampire? About how awful immortality is? It's plenty cheesy and baroque, but it might help.
The miracle of life is that everything is always new and fresh--it's a feature, not a bug.
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| This is similar to the themes in novel The Unbearable Lightness of Being, which suggests to me that this is a common human experience. |
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I get it. We are heading home from my DD’s college graduation. Yesterday we had a lovely day after the ceremony. Me, DH, DD and my younger daughter. It was so nice. I’m now having anxiety that something is about to go terribly wrong and we will look back on that day as the last time we were together an happy. I’m crying just writing this.
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| Nietasche’s concept of eternal return is a great way to understand those feelings |
| And I’m thankful for it. I’ve had a lot more rough moments than good. |
| Nostalgic depression. |
If you taken 2 extra minutes to brush your teeth, you wouldn't have your current kids. Your chances of existing are so small that you shouldn't let worry about not getting an exact moment back. |