Can i just get some shit off my chest?

[Anonymous]

Feel free to get some shit off your chest too. I just need to say this somewhere.

I am about to become homeless. I just paid August's rent, and I have about 180 left to get through the next month. My unemployment and savings have run out. I have not been able to get a job in over a year and a half. It causes me practically crippling depression. My self-care is for shit. My last shower was a week before this past Thursday. I can't manage to brush my teeth twice a day most days. I try really hard to get outside for an hour-long walk each evening and make it most days. I re-wear the same clothes because I can't afford to waste money on laundry. Tomorrow I need to apply for food stamps. Next weekend is my SIL's baby shower. It's far away, and I basically asked the hosts if there's anyone attending who lives in walking distance of me that I can catch a ride with, because otherwise I can't afford to get there. Thank god I already have a present. I am NOT looking forward to this baby shower at all. All my SIL's friends and other family are well off and comfortable. There will be TONS of talk about people's vacations they've had and are going on, trips, acquisitions, etc. I can not remember the last time I ate out. I'm having all sorts of physical ailments that I think are directly related to stress - like the other night I woke up at 1am with such a bad headache I was crying for over three hours.

The worst part is, this is chronic. I suck at holding onto a job. I usually last about a year or year and a half. It's pure awful luck. Two places closed, one place laid me off. But regardless of reasons, my resume looks like shit. And I think there's a small part of me that doesn't even WANT to get a job, because I know that whenever I do, a year to 18 months from then I'll just be right back in this spot - out of work, once again hiding in my shitty apartment, waiting to become homeless. I have some really nice Tupperware if anyone wants it. I don't think there'll be much use for it on the streets.

[Anonymous]

So, so sorry OP. Are you in the DC area? Can you get a survival job and/or move in with family for a couple of months? Maybe you need some time away to re-focus and figure out your next move. I've been laid off a couple of times so I feel you. I also felt like I sucked at what I did, but was able to switch gears and find a new job that I was great at! I now have a much more stable career.

Can friends help?

[Anonymous]

15:51 here. Mail the damn gift of you have cash for it. Don't bother attending it will just make you sadder .
What are your skills?
Without skills (Amazon and Hilton ) are hiring work from home folks. Also, is your landlord a big company or a 1 person deal?
I can help you on this. BTDT

[Anonymous]

I'm sorry OP. That just sucks

[Anonymous]

It's NOT bad luck, OP. DOn't hide behind that, otherwise you'll be borderline homeless all your life.

Do you have ADHD? Are you manic-depressive, or chronically depressed? Something must be wrong for you to not be able to hold down jobs.

I know, because DH has ADHD and has often been asked to leave a post.

A little self-introspection is needed here.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:15:51 here. Mail the damn gift of you have cash for it. Don't bother attending it will just make you sadder .
What are your skills?
Without skills (Amazon and Hilton ) are hiring work from home folks. Also, is your landlord a big company or a 1 person deal?
I can help you on this. BTDT

Oh, I definitely don't have the cash to mail the baby gift - it'd be way too much money.
My skills are office work - like office assistant. Landlord is a building - the guy who owns the building hired a management company. I will check Amazon and Hilton for work from home jobs - thank you so much for the tip.

[Anonymous]

Step away from the phone or computer and get in the shower. Now.

[Anonymous]

If you were my sister I'd take you in right now. Work or no work.

[Anonymous]

Go get the food stamps. You won't be homeless for a little bit because it takes more than a minute to evict someone. Go to to the food pantry. Stop trying to buy gifts and stuff for other people. Hang in there.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:If you were my sister I'd take you in right now. Work or no work.

Thanks. My older brother is not that type. He thinks "tough love" is always appropriate even though his wife's little sister (late 20's) is currently living with them for an undetermined number of months. He also thinks if anyone helps me I'll have no incentive to help myself, and lastly he thinks I don't do everything I can to get work so I don't deserve help. Oh, and he doesn't understand anything about depression at all.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:If you were my sister I'd take you in right now. Work or no work.

Same here. My sister just got laid off and I've been thinking about this.

[Anonymous]

So have you taken a shower?

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Feel free to get some shit off your chest too. I just need to say this somewhere.

I am about to become homeless. I just paid August's rent, and I have about 180 left to get through the next month. My unemployment and savings have run out. I have not been able to get a job in over a year and a half. It causes me practically crippling depression. My self-care is for shit. My last shower was a week before this past Thursday. I can't manage to brush my teeth twice a day most days. I try really hard to get outside for an hour-long walk each evening and make it most days. I re-wear the same clothes because I can't afford to waste money on laundry. Tomorrow I need to apply for food stamps. Next weekend is my SIL's baby shower. It's far away, and I basically asked the hosts if there's anyone attending who lives in walking distance of me that I can catch a ride with, because otherwise I can't afford to get there. Thank god I already have a present. I am NOT looking forward to this baby shower at all. All my SIL's friends and other family are well off and comfortable. There will be TONS of talk about people's vacations they've had and are going on, trips, acquisitions, etc. I can not remember the last time I ate out. I'm having all sorts of physical ailments that I think are directly related to stress - like the other night I woke up at 1am with such a bad headache I was crying for over three hours.

The worst part is, this is chronic. I suck at holding onto a job. I usually last about a year or year and a half. It's pure awful luck. Two places closed, one place laid me off. But regardless of reasons, my resume looks like shit. And I think there's a small part of me that doesn't even WANT to get a job, because I know that whenever I do, a year to 18 months from then I'll just be right back in this spot - out of work, once again hiding in my shitty apartment, waiting to become homeless. I have some really nice Tupperware if anyone wants it. I don't think there'll be much use for it on the streets.

Find a 'hook' (mental illness, disease, compelling personal narrative) and then start a gofund me.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:So have you taken a shower?

No. I'm just going to be sweaty again tonight. And I have this worry that I'll use up my soap/shampoo and then won't have it to use when I get an interview.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:So have you taken a shower?

No. I'm just going to be sweaty again tonight. And I have this worry that I'll use up my soap/shampoo and then won't have it to use when I get an interview.

Stop making excuses. Get in the shower now.