I just want to go home

[Anonymous]

so this is a complete whine/vent

I feel like every time things are going well something happens to epically mess things up

Im in the hospital yesterday I had an CAT scan of my stomach, kidneys,etc (pretty much my whole abdomen) they found that my pancreas is inflamed and that I have many swollen lymph nodes. They dont know why.

Today they are going to a biopsy of my lymph nodes and an endo scope.

Im on morphine, zofran, and some other medicine I cant remember a this point. They have me hooked up to hydration because I am unable to eat or drink anything and havent been able to in some time.

Im sick Im tired and I am in a ton of pain and Im missing work which means I wont be able to pick up Liams Christmas layaway and Im mad. Im upset I just wanted a good Christmas I finally have money caught up and now Im drowning again every night of work I miss Im losing 168 dollars and its making me cringe

and they dont even know if Ill be able to go home by Christmas they arent sure whats wrong

Im just whining obviously I know me being here and getting better is more important then work and a lay away but Im just an emotional wreck right now

[Anonymous]

Hang in there, hon. Get yourself better. You'll have Christmas in January if that's what it takes.

[Anonymous]

Sometimes you need a good whine. Must be scary! Hugs!

[Anonymous]

Hope you get better soon

[Anonymous]

I am sorry, OP.

[Anonymous]

My sympathies

You will be out sooner than you think and at home recovering.

I had pancreatitis once - no swollen lymph nodes - but lots of other issues. I had liquid nutrition for a few weeks. All the issues eventually resolved. Hang in there!

[Anonymous]

yeah I just want to whine

after Im better I will be thankful for the 64lb weight loss in two months Im sure lol

right now though I hurt and am miserable

[Anonymous]

I had bacterial meningitis last spring. It sucks to be in the hospital. I know exactly what you are feeling, right down to the weight loss. You will get through this, OP.