Really struggling...need fresh ideas

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I have 6.5 and 2.5 year old kids.

I've wanted to homeschool my older since they were 8 months old.

But I'm really struggling. I don't feel as though I can give my older the time and attention that is due. My younger is very demanding with a much more challenging personality than my first.

I do math, reading/grammar, anatomy, geography while my younger is napping. But it's very regimented because I went to public school and I cannot let go of the concept of just sitting down and doing work. I know it's not fun for either of us.

Sometimes we supplement with Miacademy and we do like that. We've tried some online co-ops but it didn't stick. I'd ideally find an in-person co-op, but we'll see.

My husband and I have talked about enrolling in the Fall. I thought I was okay with it because the school is pretty good with good teachers and administration.

But I'm feeling extreme guilt and last night it all hit me. I'm not ready to let my kids go - I know I can be doing so much more. But I don't know where to start or how to improve.

I'm constantly tired and don't feel like I have the energy. But I don't think I'm ready to just walk away from my dream.

I also never feel like my two kids can do any academic learning together because of the four year age difference. My older already knows basic things and gets too bored, and my younger cannot focus long enough so I feel stuck.

I need ideas and suggestions on how I can improve and make homeschooling more engaging and interesting for all.

You should enroll your 6.5 year old in school. What you are describing sounds boring and isolating for the child. Plus, it sounds like it is ruining your mental health. I homeschooled my oldest for one year and similarly felt like I "didn't have the energy" to homeschool her and take care of her siblings. Letting go of homeschooling was the best decision. I am still in touch with many homeschoolers and the ones that are able to make it work have genuine passion for education combined with high energy levels.